Well, how should I say this.... This is really sucks...
I don't want to say it as a problem but I tends to not having strong human emotions or maybe none at all.
It happens whenever I tried to know or feel my ownself, I will be trapped or disapear in my own heart darkness. There is nothing I could grab or hold on. The only thing I know is whether I am crying or not. But it didn't make sense that I don't know the reason that I cried. Sometimes I cried without a reason.
My roomate said that I'm a complete frozen block and there is a wall dividing me and the outside world. She always said that I wouldn't understand people's feeling if I were to stay in that condition... But she was wrong(again). I tends to stripped people's emotion and thinking at the same time with just a small question to trigger themselves. Of course she was also the victim. She said that she didn't understand why I can feel others feel while my own emotions vanished into thin air. To her I said that there's no explanation for what I know.
Can I ask your opinion with this issue? I have been searching an answer that will satisfy my own curiousity and ended it once and for all. Onegai, please tell me the reasons.
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